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Saturday, April 7, 2018

Leonard Gontarek Withstands Her Labyrinth, A Yard-Sale Military Lapel Medal, The Philosophy of Muggings, And A Lost Scarf

To Withstand Evil 

A Mistranslation


Live with Katerina. And marry her. And sleep with her.
And sleep with her again. She knows many more
things to do in bed than you. You are after all very
shy and inexperienced and reluctant to admit it.
In the climate of change it is as though
there is a second summer in the middle of fall.
Hydrangea re-bloom beside the peaked trees.
Hope that Katerina is still living with you in spirit
and not pretending to love you.
The light weakens. Keep in mind, Katerina has
nightmares too. Can we only replace a villainous
leader with another villainous leader?
This is not a good dream for her to be having.
The mice are sucked up like shadows
by light and the holes in the wall close.
And this is only the first part of the night.

Katerina goes out into the world.
She is committed to learning everything
about the world and falling in love with it again.
But there has been war. And she
must become a nurse in the land
of the dead where the chickens are frozen.
She celebrates healing, starts a garden,
grows cool tulips and swims
in underground rivers at night.

Far from her home and the man
she loved who is lost in a labyrinth.
Fuck him. I’m tired of getting
him out. It’s Sunday there
or Monday. She never understands
the time change. Katerina draws
a cross between a mandala
and black and white reproduction
of a Pollock abstract. She says
this is what the breath of
many years looks like. What she
knows the trees know and there is
not an ounce of God in it.
This is difficult to accept and
she must keep it to herself.
The stinging wind and morning of loneliness
she must bear too and bear alone.



Battle For The Soul Of The Country


Panel a


He would go back when
the first gun was guided into his hands.

He has filled in a heart
with black and cut it

and pinned it inside his coat.
A yard-sale military medal on his lapel.

A memory of his mother saying,
Look, it is a carpet of flowers.


Panel b


I sit between two men in a diner booth.
On my left, the man is on
a talking jag, wooing me
with anecdotes, arm around me,
spitting and narrating, salting my food,
while the one on the right lifts my wallet.


Panel c


The storm approached.
They removed the stained glass
windows from the church
and placed them safely

in their basements.
After the bombings and the rain,
after the mist cleared,
they emerged from their homes

as though into a new world.
They replaced the windows,
but they were never the same.
At times, the wind whistled through.

Panel d


I say to the mugger:
What of the one town,
the god’s or devil’s pocket
in all of the madness,
does this not suggest
that the country is good
and there are riches beyond
our beliefs, homes with
true works of art?
What about the child
who has drawn a peanut
shape with a worm in it
to indicate the earth?






Federal Land Grab


Dream 1

I left a beautiful scarf
in a restaurant
that closed within a year
which I saw trailing
from the antler of a deer
in a field.
I didn’t make much of it.



Dream 2

He had hoped it would
rain and it did when
he was on the plane
returning to the desert.



Dream 3

I wept about something I read
in a newspaper.
I say wept but I mean
I froze and was able
to step out of my body
and walk a long distance
till I came to a stream
and sat down and wept.








Leonard Gontarek is the author of six books of poems, including, Take Your Hand Out of My Pocket, Shiva and He Looked Beyond My Faults and Saw My Needs. He coordinates Poetry In Common, Peace/Works, Philly Poetry Day, The 
Philadelphia Poetry Festival, and hosts The Green Line Reading & Interview Series. He has received Poetry fellowships from the Pennsylvania Council on the Arts, the Mudfish Poetry Prize, the Philadelphia Writers Conference Community Service Award, and was a Literary Death Match Champion. His poem, 37 Photos From The Bridge, a Poetry winner for the Big Bridges MotionPoems project in 2015, was the basis for the award-winning film by Lori Ersolmaz.

Thursday, April 5, 2018

Adrian Slonaker Chronicles Epistolary Embraces, Undulating Longhand, Hotel Mattresses, and Psychobiddy Melodramas

“Shirley”

For as long as she'd filled out her census forms,
Shirley had been a one-person household,
and she wasn't a hugger, concluding that,
unless a kid is clutching you to
prevent plummeting to a painful death,
a hug is superfluous.
Yet she posted epistolary embraces to
a penfriend named Ahmet,
the fiftyish Turkish typing teacher who wrote in
dreamy undulating longhand
and sent selfies of a mustachioed face with smiling eyes
and a solemn mouth.
His warmhearted words, eagerly gulped down-
like cloudy lemonade with clinking shards of ice in a heat wave,
sustained her in stoic solitude as her humdrum haze
of postmenopausal puttering progressed
from tolerable to acceptable.
Their correspondence continued until year six, when
Ahmet vouchsafed that he'd be visiting her,
snaking a romantic route from Izmir to Yonkers
by ship and by train.
On April 12th she put on her chartreuse shift dress
and Chanel No. 5
and waited at the railway station
for a passenger who never stepped onto the platform.
Shirley shuffled back every morning
for nine Ahmetless days
before she shrugged her sloping shoulders
at the ninth shrinking caboose
and silently slaughtered hope. 



“The Hotel Mattress”

The mattress is long in the tooth,
if mattresses could masticate,
having dazzled in its debut in the city's haughtiest hotel,
bolstering the sweat-blotched backs of visiting VIPs
and their lovers.
But mattresses, like Hollywood honeys,
have a best-before date,
so as Joan Crawford and Bette Davis were found featured
in psychobiddy melodramas in the sixties,
the mattress was next cast in a mid-range motel,
braving ravioli smudges, incontinent seniors, sick anklebiters,
and cursing couples cross at the requirement to rise
at three fucking a.m. for cheap Continental flights.
The mattress continued its descent
down to a roadside flophouse,
suddenly smeared with hookers' rouge and vodka-scented vomit
and grossly groped during demoralizing drug busts.
The mattress is beyond knackered,
yet pleased with its red-letter rips, stains and sags
as a valiant vet is proud of the Victoria Cross or Légion d'Honneur.



Adrian Slonaker works as a copywriter and copy editor, dividing time between Lancaster, Pennsylvania, USA and St. John's, Newfoundland, Canada. Adrian's work has appeared in Squawk Back, The Bohemyth, Queen Mob's Tea House, Pangolin Review, The Honest Ulsterman, and others.  

Sunday, April 1, 2018

Rus Khomutoff Chronicles Realm Navigators, Love Pavers, and Spellbound Speculators

Prisoner of infinity
To Felino A. Soriano


Oh Prisoner of infinity
countercurrent between transgression and transaction
insinuation of eternity’s unrepeatable coalescence
poise deposited in an effervescent aye
on this iron chain of birth and annihilation
you espouse your catastrophe of charm
surefire voices that furnish the kiss of death
an unwearying impulse
to decrypt and decipher longing
like an idea infested with platitudes
realm navigator on the edge of consciousness


Sonic threshold of the sacred
To William Carlos Williams


What waxes wanes
the enforced reincarnation hour
and green quartz veins
over the mind of pride
nonentities
Nowhere you!
Everywhere the electric!
the golden one
living in a poetic world, devouring words
these are the thoughts that run rampant
love paves the way tour existence


Paradise & Method
To Lovebug Starski


An exasperated sigh of grammar and spice
rendered in haphazard lew
vintage wise vanity
lactose intolerant daunt
a dilatation of the dead body of reality
where spirit is no longer
anything but adventitious memory
spellbound speculations
phraseology in completeness
beyond our understanding
the finiteness of type




My name is Rus Khomutoff and I am a neo surrealist language poet in Brooklyn,NY. My poetry has appeared in Erbacce, Occulum, Rasputin, Poethead, and Hypnopomp. I just published my first book entitled Immaculate Days (Alien Buddha Press).

Saturday, March 31, 2018

Joe Balaz Returns To Bare Knuckles, Grunge, The Bovine Consciousness, The High Heavenly Rafters, And Why Not To Sell The Farm Just Yet


DA HEAD LIBRARIAN IS WUN POET



Da head librarian is wun poet.


Metaphorically speaking

in da suburban pastures
and da fenced in meadows of da city

I stay looking foa Bohemians
dat should be sprouting like mushrooms—

I tink I found one.


It’s not easy to do

cause in dis metropolis
all I see are institutional ivory towers

and other likewise establishments
catering to artistic big wigs.


I need some grunge
and bare knuckles

scraped raw wit experience.


Da head librarian
self published wun book

dat wuz on wun display table
by da back door at da library—

I wen read ‘um.


Den I wen find
his impromptu videos on Facebook.


Da buggah is animated
and he stay in wun way out orbit

so dere’s some kine of affinity dere.


I wrote him wun email

cause I got his address
from da information desk

wen I wen make wun phone call latah.


I wuz investigating
his existence on da local scene.


Funny ting
he wen do da same ting

and he did wun online check on me.


As foa now
dats as far as it goes

cause me and him
are like two  independent mosquitoes

buzzing da same ears
of wun big Cleveland cash cow.


Metaphorically speaking again

I can see it standing
out dere in da fields

wun humungous golden calf

dat all da academics
are dancing circles around.

Beneath da wise sacred mountain
of muse and plenty

in northeast Ohio and beyond

got all kine different voices
doing various and interesting tings.


Still yet all da academics dance
wit dere shiny grants and credentials

as dey scratch dere own backs

and toss flowers at da hooves
of da big gleaming bovine.


It’s wun good ting
dat grass is free

cause anybody can munch on it
and nourish anyting dey like.



LIMITATION SCALE



Keep looking up to da rafters

cause you going see
wun slam dunk extravaganza.


Somebody should have warned you

cause it’s no fun
being da tallest midget on da basketball court

wen da seven-footer walks in.


No contest.
No trophy.

No certificate of participation.


Only wun idiot will stay and fight
wen warriors run foa da hills.


Bravado and self-confidence is admirable

but dere’s wun limitation scale
dat you got to pay attention to                          

adahwise you going get squashed
like wun bug.


No try be
wat you tink you see

while you take off
on dose flights of fancy.


Dere’s wun reason
dat reality is filled wit cuts and bruises
                                        
cause it’s hard and unforgiving
wen you end up falling on your face.



EASY MONEY



Before you sell da farm
to get in on da ground level

make sure you know wat you buying.


Wat you may tink is wun great bargain
offered in heartfelt sincerity

could actually be wun beautifully designed rug
placed ovah wen deep dark hole.

Watch your step
cause da shifty dealer certainly is.


All of da tricky methods

are incorporated
into wun greater shell game.

Some choice too—

It’s like picking between
flesh eating bacteria, Ebola,

or wun non-existent pea

dat will make your arms and legs disappear
along wit your purse or wallet.


Potentiality
always glitters like shiny gold

but dats wheah
you really have to pay attention

cause hard earned cash to most people
can be easy money to somebody else.



Joe Balaz writes in Hawaiian Islands Pidgin (Hawai'i Creole English) and in American English.
He edited Ho'omanoa: An Anthology of Contemporary Hawaiian Literature.  Some of his recent Pidgin writing has appeared in Unlikely Stories Mark V, Otoliths, Tuck Magazine, and
Heavy Feather Review, among others.  Balaz is an avid supporter of Hawaiian Islands Pidgin writing in the expanding context of World Literature.  He presently lives in Cleveland, Ohio.

Friday, March 30, 2018

Thomas Zimmerman Amidst Susurrations, Resurrection Kisses, Mahler And Football, And The Bodies Of Christ And Byron


Zombie Blues

Strange days, and stranger nights. I wouldn’t mind
it weirder. A whiskey in my hand,
and you, well, out of hand. At least I wish
it so. A jazzman’s on the stereo.
He’s murdering the standards, with piano,
bass, and drums complicit in the act:
it’s “Night and Day,” and “Tea for Two,” “I’ve Got 
You under My Skin.” You think the world
will kill you quick, but really it just eats
you slow. Just like I sip. There’s chicken in
the fridge. I’ll chop some greens. Relax. If you
sleep hard enough, it’s like you’re dead, except
you get to live again. You rise a little
faded, but a kiss will bring the color back.



Spider Web

It’s Mahler now this morning, college football
later in the afternoon. The coffee’s
on, but something’s clinging like a spider
web that spans the crawlspace snug between
your skull and brain. An old man, looking like
an oak-tree god, is frowning, asks you, “Fool,
what have you brought?” You swear he’s cut your tongue,
you’re drinking blood. Saliva-sick, you swallow,
wallow in the thought of suffering
but bringing something back. Recycled life,
like Byron, maybe Christ. “I offer up
my body and the body of my work,”
you sing. “The paltry all that anyone
can do.” Phone rings. You shake. The web still clings.


Flipside

John Luther Adams’ Ocean piece is playing
soft, and susurrations comes to mind.
I’ve got last night’s linguini zapped and steaming
in a bowl. The coffee’s gone, but sun’s
come out (I keep on typing sin’s). Back deck’s
still wet. I’m thinking amputation now,
how it’s the wreck of reputation amplified:
Our tough old greyhound Scarlet’s lost
a cancerous-looking toe, but she’s bounced back
(just like eight years ago, with blocked intestines
like a boa draped around our vet),
is trotting now. We’ve got to keep her bandage
dry. I miss our banged-together bodies.
Blown leaves whisper, Loss’s flipside is love.



Thomas Zimmerman teaches English, directs the Writing Center, and edits The Big Windows Review at Washtenaw Community College, in Ann Arbor, Michigan. His poems have appeared recently in The Pangolin Review and Dirty Paws Poetry Review. Tom's website: https://thomaszimmerman.wordpress.com/.

Tuesday, March 27, 2018

John Grochalski Laments When The Vodka Does The Talking, First World Problems, Burnt AND Cold Pizza, And The Service Fees Of Being An American

blah blah

he does it most nights
stands a stone’s throw
from my living room window

talking nonsense into his cellphone

blah blah blah
murmur murmur

his fat ass jiggling in the estuary breeze

he is always pleading with someone
in undertones that are still loud enough
to ruin my neil young records and solace

sometimes i’ll stand at my window and watch him

thinking…
who is losing hours of their night
talking to him on the phone?

blah blah blah
murmur murmur

incantations of unrequited love
on his way home with another lonely pizza box

the last time he did it
i couldn’t stand it anymore

i’m getting that fucker, i said to my wife

i slammed down the vodka glass
and shut off the neil young

i opened up the window and stuck my head outside
hey, you fat fuck
some of us are trying to have evenings here

some of us are trying to escape a suicide

but that didn’t stop him

blah blah blah
murmur murmur

he didn’t even know
that i was speaking to him

his fat ass kept jiggling in the estuary breeze

when i popped my head
back in the living room
my wife shook her head at me and said

that was mean

fuck him, i said
i was a fat ass once too
but i never stood in front of anyone’s window
and tried to kill them with words

well…that lead to a fight

my wife said things that she’d regret
i said things that i’d regret

the vodka did a lot of talking for both of us

she stormed off to bed
and i made my own on the couch

i tried to put the neil young back on
but all was lost

so i just laid there in the dark
listening to another bullshit brooklyn night
fart out an ending

blah blah blah
murmur murmur

as he finally waddled past my window
and down the block

incantations of unrequited love
and his fat ass jiggling in the estuary breeze.


burnt pizza

it was pulling teeth
to get a good day lately

it was mornings
sitting in front of the machine
wordless and devoid of talent

it was your book rejected
the overall malaise of city life

some call these “first world problems”
but fuck them…what do they know?

our sorrows are roses
poking blood red out of a scorched terrain
of our own doing

all we wanted was pizza
and vodka, copious amounts of wine

the music of old gods on the verge of death

as we lived on the couch like a soused king and queen
with no worries and responsibilities to speak of

yet there we were an hour later
promises of a speedy delivery broken

our heads poking out of separate windows
like expectant dogs

the two saddest, hungriest idiots in brooklyn

our gums numb
from cheap liquor and loose words

waiting for the pizza to arrive
burnt and cold and not worthy of a peasant

staring up at us from a winedrunk coffee table

like the mocking face of a serpent in hell
daring us to make another plan tomorrow.         



fear and loathing at the ATM machine

i’ve surely
come at worst times
to find this ATM machine down

like when i needed a drink
more than i needed human contact or love
or i hauled my ass over three avenues
hungover with no headache medicine
in the cabinet at home and no cash in my wallet

but why in the hell are you down
at noon on a thursday?

certainly a conspiracy
with the credit card companies

that or you never had your debit card
compromised by little shits at the grocery store
who spent four-hundred bucks on camera equipment
and video games

and you were afraid to use the card again

this is horseshit
this beats all

your little haiku of denial can piss itself

sorry for the inconvenience
but this machine
is out of order

what in the fuck
am i going to buy my turkey sandwich
and nasal spray with?

my charm?

we live in a world where people
can have things in an instant

where people buy and sell each other over lunch

but i can’t even take
twenty bucks out of this crummy machine
to fill my belly and clear my nose

i’m so missing out on the bounty
of self-serving greed that is america

and yes i know i can use my card
at several other banks

but there’s a service fee
and you people have no clue
just how cheap i am

and why should i pay for your incompetence?

your institution must be republican owned
screwing over the little guy like this

you know what?
to hell with you…i’ll starve

we live in an era of protest
and today an aching belly will be mine

a runny nose to show the world
that the people won’t take it anymore
least of all from a piece of shit bank worth billions

who can’t even do their jobs
who can’t even fix a machine for christ sake
who don’t even have the decency
the moral currency and certitude to…

oh wait
there’s ten bucks rolled up in my back pocket

fuck it
never mind.


John Grochalski is the author of The Noose Doesn’t Get Any Looser After You Punch Out (Six Gallery Press 2008), Glass City (Low Ghost Press, 2010), In The Year of Everything Dying (Camel Saloon, 2012), Starting with the Last Name Grochalski (Coleridge Street Books, 2014), and the novels, The Librarian (Six Gallery Press 2013), and Wine Clerk (Six Gallery Press 2016).  Grochalski currently lives in Brooklyn, New York, where the garbage can smell like roses if you wish on it hard enough.

Wednesday, March 21, 2018

Alan Catlin On Padded Walls, Cave Paintings, Drinking In The End Times, and Kafka's In The Making

The Voice at 3 A.M.
after C. Simic

is the Lunatic after he has
escaped the asylum, after
he has bent the bars of a solitary
life as an acrobat would,
scribbling in the dark the code
of warped genius gone bad
on padded walls before he
finds a place to reside where
only changeling wolves
will go.  Here, among friends,
he stutters, but all who gather
to hear his words know how
easily prophecy may be confused
with truth. Paintings on cave
dwelling walls tell an epic tale,
but what does it mean?



Adios Amigos

After all the false alarms,
it was just another End Times
gathering, even with embossed
invitations, that seemed like
just another excuse for
a party.  Not only had
the novelty worn off,
but the pretense as well.
If a nude descended  a
staircase, no one would
have noticed or cared.
After awhile, even the black
humor, sick jokes about
death and the hereafter,
felt like hollow testimonials
for a deceased office colleague
everyone openly despised.
Only the drinking was real.
The drugs.




Working Class Country Children 1914
                    after August Sander

There is something curious,
something not quite right
with these children.

The two boys dressed in
their Sunday best, heads
shaved to the nubs like
junior Kafka’s before
the metamorphosis or
after the kinder-transports.

The girls are not exactly stunted
but have eyes that are too far part
to be normal, seem unusually intense,
are the kind of growing curiosities
that would be out of place
in a Borges bestiary.

There is a kind of native
intelligence in all these
children’s eyes. The kind
that is harmless now
but in adults, unspeakable.


Alan Catlin has published many chapbooks and full length book. His most recent chapbooks are the movie inspired Hollyweird and Blue Velvet winner of the 2017 Slipstream Chapbook Competition.