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Monday, December 12, 2022
Steve Brisendine Contemplates Giving God A Free Shot, The Angel-Slain Firstborn, And Thickets Of Fingernails
Rp Verlaine Explores Where Androids Go To Die, The Dissolving Fish, That Heaven We Knew, And The Hemlock Of Repetition
Inadequate Patterns
Like dissolving fish
on the computer
screen saver,
we disintegrate
each new kiss,
each pale white room
where we suffocate
asking for air
others took from us.
Like fragile tape,
the data truncated and bereft
starting points or ends,
the wheels just spin,
no sticking to facts
erased in fail-safe
where androids go to die
when love neither life supports
or dies.
Like sleeping patterns
void of stimuli,
all noiseless night
or blinding light
no eyes to guide us
we drift between days
conscious of nothing
we take turns defining.
Yet we can't be alone,
malfunctioning toward
final decay, but
we can't be alone
like the stars, planets
oceans, and the
dissolving fish
for which no hook exists,
at least not yet.
Recalibration
Disengaged to wonder
past the indifferent portals
of strangers,
I still reach out
to your vaunted charm
in its invisible setting
no longer there.
Phantoms now
lost in the glittering
streets of chaos
we once navigated
with the confidence
of having such arrogance
we played by calculations
that never failed before
transfixed by the astonishing
blur of a roulette
wheel we bet on
once misnamed love.
Now disengaged
from all we assumed
yet unable to validate
With religious fervor
all former preconceptions
we reach out looking up
to that heaven we knew,
no longer there.
The Safe Place
In utero 1st
antiseptic scrubs
videoed stirrings to preschool
slow crawl walking past
temporarily eclipsed friends,
sports, desires each familiar
foreign in solemn proximity
to a safe place no longer.
A cautious double
take. Comes up empty.
a kiss held, treasured,
missed marriage if...
the immune two-step
backwards the counter
forwards to children
in solemn proximity to
a safe place no longer.
Work... drone drone drone,
the hemlock of repetition
of time's spaces between
cracks, sickness, retirement.
death gives its notice
stronger yet, ‘til finally
blessed with acceptance
yes, this life,
the same game lost
a safe place no longer.
He has an MFA in creative writing from City College.
He taught in New York Public schools for many years.
His first volume of poetry- Damaged by Dames
& Drinking was published in 2017 and another – Femme Fatales
Movie Starlets & Rockers in 2018. A set of three e-books
Tuesday, November 22, 2022
Matt Borczon's Oak Cabinet Legacy, Perils Of Bad Jobs, And Being Hung In The Tulsa County Jail
a story
I heard
many times
both from
Sherrie and
from Dottie
her mom
Matthew Borczon is a nurse and Navy Corpsman from Erie Pa. He served in the busiest combat hospital in Afghanistan from 2010-2011; he writes about his experiences on Camp Bastion and about the difficulties he has had since coming home.
Monday, November 21, 2022
Howie Good Returns With Invisible Powers, The Titanic Shipyard, And Bonfire-Sized Roses
In Lieu of Flowers
I told the doctors flat out, “Cure me or kill me,” only to be strapped down like the ladder on the roof of the white work van, but not before I managed to channel the zealotry of a martyr an declare every day should be a mental health day, something that was feeling suddenly necessary now that a first cousin about my age had died from an overdose, an unsuspected heart condition, invisibility, if the invisible is defined as “what light cannot illuminate,” or just so much sadness.
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My dad tried to kill himself three times. Well, four if you count the time he fell asleep smoking in bed and woke up with the mattress on fire. That country no longer exists. I remember because I arrived on a ship built in the same shipyard as the Titanic. Others who came from faraway don’t want to believe their own memories. Each night the moon grows darker. The family dog wails like a soul in hell demented by unbearable pain. A lot of things happen that just kind of happen; for example, the human skulls on sale on Etsy.
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I was born in the rain and the dark – a vague but sinister omen. Almost immediately, familiar words were given unfamiliar meanings; familiar objects, unfamiliar names. I grew up surrounded on three sides by ghosts imprisoned behind barbed wire. Today’s rain falls on yesterday. A 100-year-old former concentration camp guard has been arrested in Bavaria on 3,518 counts of being an accessory to murder. Up, you corpses! Get up! Wounds heal from the inside out. It’s only a matter of weeks perhaps before there are wild roses the size of bonfires.
Howie Good is the author of Failed Haiku, a poetry collection that is the co-winner of the 2021 Grey Book Press Chapbook Contest and scheduled for publication in summer 2022
Friday, October 14, 2022
Joshua Martin Explores Fireflies Trapped in Eardrums, Avant Guarding Angels, And Rechristened Zombies
Leaving a Piece of Mind Beneath a Wheelbarrow
After an ounce. In point of
fact. misspelled abbreviations.
a curse on the purse
that laid to waste
HENRY & his day
old
SOUP of heavenly
delight.
i have an EYE to
expand,
unable & un
willingly
average. without the light
Of
Delight. Of a daring escape
artist composer
trapping
fireflies in eardrums
& the
SYMPHONY of a THOUSAND
four wheel drives. Dusting
off the violin penis size
boiler
plate
ligaments
wound around
the neck tattoo
parking lot. an
intention
square root. dismissed.
missed.
Used. Grief stricken
bass solo. i had to glisten
to be a typhoon.
No Kind of Criteria
Coming to blows,
AVANT guarding angels
sniffing
AIRPLANE GLUE.
soothing lotions
up to the eyeballs
& w/ curmudgeon
folding feathered
paper, let a touch
be the guide to
an approaching
seat. rivers RUN
through
visions wooded,
fenced off
j
e
s
t
e
r
pulls a face to the
water’s surface,
abandoning blood
curdling,
swimming,
race car driver
left in the supermarket.
tears/
fears / peer pressure
skimming.
potassium production expo
queen of meaty palms
panning LeFt
cross = iNG landscape
suicidal telepathic
muse
, fearless ogre chuckles
BRIGHTLY
[!] Across centuries
of polar paranoia
, rechristened zombies
murmur thumping
genealogical suites
[?] Lisps
poison LAW,less igloo
/ diametrically
unabashed /
perversity at the equator
& sullen chirping
manhole cover
in silhouette.
Joshua Martin is a Philadelphia based writer and filmmaker, who currently works in a library. He is the author of the books combustible panoramic twists (Trainwreck Press), Pointillistic Venetian Blinds (Alien Buddha Press) and Vagabond fragments of a hole (Schism Neuronics). He has had numerous pieces published in various journals including Otoliths, M58, The Sparrow’s Trombone, Coven, Scud, Ygdrasil, RASPUTIN, Ink Pantry, and Synchronized Chaos. You can find links to his published work at joshuamartinwriting.blogspot.com